Paige's Christening Ceremony

This morning I am truly reminded of the story of Hannah. Hannah was a woman with a bare womb who prayed for a child. All I hear are Hannah's words "if you give me a child lord I will give him to you all the days of his life". 

God saw something within me a year ago and decided to bless me with a child. I do not know why ..... it was totally unexpected but I am extremely honored that I was chosen to be the mother of such an awesome little girl. She has made my life so much better in the little time that she has been here. She brightens my day. If I am feeling sad, she cheers me up.  Her smile brings a huge smile to my face. She is amazing and I am so thankful that God picked me when he really did not have to. So today I give Paige back to the Lord and vow to raise her according to his word. 

Paige's dedication ceremony is happening at the St Matthews MB Church. This is my father's church. It has been my home church since I was a little girl. My son was dedicated at this same church. Simply put, it is a special place for me.  We woke up early and headed to Labelle which is a good 2 hours from where I live. Not everyone could make it but I am so happy that my sister and Paige's godmother could. We had a wonderful time at the church and at the steakhouse afterward. 

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Mommy K

Christmas Photo Shoot

The kids and I got dressed and headed to Walmart to do a holiday photo shoot. The pictures exceeded all of my expectations. The man did a fantastic job with Jalen and Paige.  I went to purchase one set and bought all of them.  Paige's dress was on sale from Target for $8 believe it or not. Jalen's tie came from Burlington Coat Factory and my shirt came from JC Penny's.

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Mommy  K

Meet Deuce! .... my labor story

Everybody meet Deuce ....

So I arrived at the hospital. I went through paperwork and etc. An older black lady informed me that I was going to be given Cervidil. I immediately started to panic. I had heard bad things about Cervidil ... stories about women having csections because of it, ruptured placentas, and just flat out horror stories. I immediately began to rethink my induction. Maybe I should have listened to my family and just waited Deuce out. Luckily I know where my help comes from so as the woman spoke I closed my eyes and prayed. I asked God to protect me and my baby and I begged him to not have me on an operating table for a c-section. As I said amen, the old lady said "Baby dont worry. This rarely puts you in labor! At 7 am we will start your pitocin. Get lots of rest because you are going to need it"  She said the Cervidil would need to be in for 12 hours before I could start pitocin. And with that she left. I texted my family the information, got as comfortable as I could get and waited.

For the rest of my life I will always remember just how WRONG that lady was. She was like Cervidil only starts labor in like 5% of women ... or something like that ...... and as my luck would have it, I would be one of the 5%. Those labor pains started hitting me so hard. I was scheduled to get an epidural but I wanted to see how much I could tolerate before asking for it.

By 11 pm I was in uncontrollable pain. I was crying. I just knew I was ready to push any moment now and the fact that I had endured so much pain and was ready to deliver my daughter without meds made me puff my chest out. The nurse came in and said I was 1 cm.

That was flat out impossible! I was one centimeter when I entered the hospital. Surely my cervix had dilated more. Certainly I was not in the worst pain of my life for nothing. But surely enough I was only a centimeter. The nurse gave me pain meds via IV. As soon as they kicked in I went to sleep. About 2 am I woke up and felt like Jesus himself was calling me home. I cried, I banged my head on the bed, I begged for my husband to end my life. I told him where I wanted to be shot at and he laughed at me .... and then I wanted to kill him ...... Eventually the nurse returned and asked if I wanted more pain meds. I remember distinctly saying "These pain meds aint doing ish for these contractions!!!" So the epidural guy was called. Lawd he took forever.  Everybody in Wellington, Royal Palm Beach, Lake Worth, and Greenacres must have needed some type of pain relief because bruh man was booked up. They didnt have a back up? I mean cmon man! The nurse came back to say that he should be in by 3 am. 3???? Lawd that was another hour away.

If I wasnt lying in a bed I probably would have fainted. I've never prayed so hard in my life. By the time he finally arrived I was flat out delusional. I cant even remember the ish that was coming out of my mouth but I do know that going home to meet my maker at that time did not sound like a bad idea. Finally the epidural arrives. I'm in so much pain that they literally have to pick me up and move me around just so that I can get in position. As soon as that needle went into my spine I thanked the lord for ever inventing such a miracle.  And then I proceeded to take my behind to sleep. They were scheduled to do my pitocin at 7 am. They came in at 7 to check me. I was 9 centimeters. They said nah, she's good, called my doctor and said we have a baby coming. Honestly, I really didnt give a damb. I was sleeping so good when they woke me up....I just wanted to back there. But my phone began to ring and people started to arrive so I woke up and prepared for the show too.


The hospital only allowed two people in the room with me so it ended up being my mommy and my husband. My husband coached me. The pushing wasnt too bad. It's crazy but this is baby number two for me and I still have NO idea how to push. However the nurses said I did an excellent job. A few minutes shy of 9 am and out popped Deuce ..... aka Miss Paige Malia Johnson. The first thing that I noticed was that she was small. We practically forced her out and I thought she would be much bigger. She ended up weighing in at 7 lbs 3 ounces ... the exact amount that my son weighed 11 years earlier. After confirming that she had 10 fingers, 10 toes and was healthy, I was ready for my room!

So Deuce is no longer Deuce .... she is now Paige! She is gorgeous.

Paige's hospital pictures

Whenever I look down at her I forget all of the pain that I endured to get her here. Yeah right! I remember it ALL! lol But she was so worth it.

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Mommy K

It's OVER so SOON?

Well today has finally arrived....with God's will and a little help from the science world,  I will finally be able to hold and meet my little "Deuce".  I promise it feels as if I have been pregnant for years instead of being pregnant for a mere 40 weeks and 2 days.  I woke up singing Hallelujhah and praising God for allowing me to see this day but as the hours have rolled by I find myself getting a little more excited, more anxious and just a tad bit sad.  My pregnancy is coming to an end in a few hours. I've tried to rub my belly and talk to her just because tomorrow there will no longer be anyone IN my belly. For all of the agony that she has caused.....the backaches, the pelvis aches, the food adversions, the constant peeing, the inability to walk at times, the weight gain...yeah this list could go on and on and on lol but for all of the agony that she has caused a piece of me is sad because this is my last pregnancy and it is coming to an end. 

Its funny because I never thought that I would feel this way....not last month, not last week, not even yesterday. Hell not even a few hours ago.  I have been the one shouting and jumping for joy that I was so glad that my pregnancy was ending so it kind of shocks me that I am feeling this way.  I find myself just staring at my little---ok BIG--bump.  Never in a million years would I have ever thought that I'd be in this predicament and yet here I am. I have tried to cherish every moment.  I think I'll need a few moments alone.

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Progress....40 weeks

 

 

How far along: 40 weeks

Total weight gain: 21 lbs

Size of the baby: Pumpkin  20 inches 7.5 lbs

Sex: Girl

Maternity clothes: Only jeans....still rocking my pre-maternity maxi dresses!

Sleep: What's that? Getting up every hour to pee! :/

Movement: YES!!! Lots of it.

Food cravings: Anything and everything

Food aversions: Chipotle & milk

Morning sickness: Gone..finally!

Symptoms: tired, minor contractions, swollen feet, backaches

Labor signs: minor contractions

Belly button in or out: In but gradually coming out

What I miss: Energy, sleep and MY HIGH HEELS!

What I'm looking forward to: Paige finally arriving!

Milestones: I reached my due date

Bye bye due date..... :(

Welp it is December 1st. It has come and it is leaving and guess what? I'm still preggo! I dont know why I am so surprised......I'm scheduled to be induced Monday but I was holding out to the little glimmer of hope that Paige would come around and be born on her due date. Silly me! I started having contractions at 9 am and I could not have been happier. They stayed steady for six hours....six freaking hours! They came every 20 minutes and then nada. Boy words can not express just how disappointed I was. I tried to mask it.  To the outside world I looked like this

But on the inside I felt like this

I needed a hug in the biggest way but  was too upset to say so.  Instead I drowned my misery in a cheesy burger from TGIFridays and a gooey dessert.  Finally the contractions started back up about 3 hours later but they did nothing but piss me off.  Another glimmer of hope occurred when I went to the hospital at 11 pm. Once again the contractions were faithful...just not faithful enough for me to head to my delivery room. I was sent home. Such is life.  I know one thing...I cannot wait for this pregnancy to be over with!

My belly, my belly, my belly

Every day on BabyBump some woman posts a picture of her naked belly. Now I have faithfully taken belly shots WITH my clothes on to cherish the moments but I have been apprehensive about naked belly shots. This is only because my naked belly looks deformed in my opinion. It's not cute at all and it's shaped kind of funny. It kind of looks as if it contains a tumor instead of a baby and so I just did not want to take any pics. Well I wanted to but I didn't. Does that make sense?

So one day Paige is acting a fool and I whip out my camera to record her. Of course she stopped as soon as I started recording....she throws so much shade *sighs* but I figured hey my belly is out, my camera is out, let's take some pics.

I don't really think my bump is huge per se but after seeing the pics I may need new glasses. This thing looks gigantic. I look at the picture all of the time because within that huge bump sits my Paige-E-Poo...how awesome is that :). So world here is my naked bump. Don't laugh. I'm like Erykah Badu...I'm sensitive about my ish :)