Christmas Photo Shoot

The kids and I got dressed and headed to Walmart to do a holiday photo shoot. The pictures exceeded all of my expectations. The man did a fantastic job with Jalen and Paige.  I went to purchase one set and bought all of them.  Paige's dress was on sale from Target for $8 believe it or not. Jalen's tie came from Burlington Coat Factory and my shirt came from JC Penny's.

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Mommy  K

Meet Deuce! .... my labor story

Everybody meet Deuce ....

So I arrived at the hospital. I went through paperwork and etc. An older black lady informed me that I was going to be given Cervidil. I immediately started to panic. I had heard bad things about Cervidil ... stories about women having csections because of it, ruptured placentas, and just flat out horror stories. I immediately began to rethink my induction. Maybe I should have listened to my family and just waited Deuce out. Luckily I know where my help comes from so as the woman spoke I closed my eyes and prayed. I asked God to protect me and my baby and I begged him to not have me on an operating table for a c-section. As I said amen, the old lady said "Baby dont worry. This rarely puts you in labor! At 7 am we will start your pitocin. Get lots of rest because you are going to need it"  She said the Cervidil would need to be in for 12 hours before I could start pitocin. And with that she left. I texted my family the information, got as comfortable as I could get and waited.

For the rest of my life I will always remember just how WRONG that lady was. She was like Cervidil only starts labor in like 5% of women ... or something like that ...... and as my luck would have it, I would be one of the 5%. Those labor pains started hitting me so hard. I was scheduled to get an epidural but I wanted to see how much I could tolerate before asking for it.

By 11 pm I was in uncontrollable pain. I was crying. I just knew I was ready to push any moment now and the fact that I had endured so much pain and was ready to deliver my daughter without meds made me puff my chest out. The nurse came in and said I was 1 cm.

That was flat out impossible! I was one centimeter when I entered the hospital. Surely my cervix had dilated more. Certainly I was not in the worst pain of my life for nothing. But surely enough I was only a centimeter. The nurse gave me pain meds via IV. As soon as they kicked in I went to sleep. About 2 am I woke up and felt like Jesus himself was calling me home. I cried, I banged my head on the bed, I begged for my husband to end my life. I told him where I wanted to be shot at and he laughed at me .... and then I wanted to kill him ...... Eventually the nurse returned and asked if I wanted more pain meds. I remember distinctly saying "These pain meds aint doing ish for these contractions!!!" So the epidural guy was called. Lawd he took forever.  Everybody in Wellington, Royal Palm Beach, Lake Worth, and Greenacres must have needed some type of pain relief because bruh man was booked up. They didnt have a back up? I mean cmon man! The nurse came back to say that he should be in by 3 am. 3???? Lawd that was another hour away.

If I wasnt lying in a bed I probably would have fainted. I've never prayed so hard in my life. By the time he finally arrived I was flat out delusional. I cant even remember the ish that was coming out of my mouth but I do know that going home to meet my maker at that time did not sound like a bad idea. Finally the epidural arrives. I'm in so much pain that they literally have to pick me up and move me around just so that I can get in position. As soon as that needle went into my spine I thanked the lord for ever inventing such a miracle.  And then I proceeded to take my behind to sleep. They were scheduled to do my pitocin at 7 am. They came in at 7 to check me. I was 9 centimeters. They said nah, she's good, called my doctor and said we have a baby coming. Honestly, I really didnt give a damb. I was sleeping so good when they woke me up....I just wanted to back there. But my phone began to ring and people started to arrive so I woke up and prepared for the show too.


The hospital only allowed two people in the room with me so it ended up being my mommy and my husband. My husband coached me. The pushing wasnt too bad. It's crazy but this is baby number two for me and I still have NO idea how to push. However the nurses said I did an excellent job. A few minutes shy of 9 am and out popped Deuce ..... aka Miss Paige Malia Johnson. The first thing that I noticed was that she was small. We practically forced her out and I thought she would be much bigger. She ended up weighing in at 7 lbs 3 ounces ... the exact amount that my son weighed 11 years earlier. After confirming that she had 10 fingers, 10 toes and was healthy, I was ready for my room!

So Deuce is no longer Deuce .... she is now Paige! She is gorgeous.

Paige's hospital pictures

Whenever I look down at her I forget all of the pain that I endured to get her here. Yeah right! I remember it ALL! lol But she was so worth it.

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Mommy K

It's OVER so SOON?

Well today has finally arrived....with God's will and a little help from the science world,  I will finally be able to hold and meet my little "Deuce".  I promise it feels as if I have been pregnant for years instead of being pregnant for a mere 40 weeks and 2 days.  I woke up singing Hallelujhah and praising God for allowing me to see this day but as the hours have rolled by I find myself getting a little more excited, more anxious and just a tad bit sad.  My pregnancy is coming to an end in a few hours. I've tried to rub my belly and talk to her just because tomorrow there will no longer be anyone IN my belly. For all of the agony that she has caused.....the backaches, the pelvis aches, the food adversions, the constant peeing, the inability to walk at times, the weight gain...yeah this list could go on and on and on lol but for all of the agony that she has caused a piece of me is sad because this is my last pregnancy and it is coming to an end. 

Its funny because I never thought that I would feel this way....not last month, not last week, not even yesterday. Hell not even a few hours ago.  I have been the one shouting and jumping for joy that I was so glad that my pregnancy was ending so it kind of shocks me that I am feeling this way.  I find myself just staring at my little---ok BIG--bump.  Never in a million years would I have ever thought that I'd be in this predicament and yet here I am. I have tried to cherish every moment.  I think I'll need a few moments alone.

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Progress....40 weeks

 

 

How far along: 40 weeks

Total weight gain: 21 lbs

Size of the baby: Pumpkin  20 inches 7.5 lbs

Sex: Girl

Maternity clothes: Only jeans....still rocking my pre-maternity maxi dresses!

Sleep: What's that? Getting up every hour to pee! :/

Movement: YES!!! Lots of it.

Food cravings: Anything and everything

Food aversions: Chipotle & milk

Morning sickness: Gone..finally!

Symptoms: tired, minor contractions, swollen feet, backaches

Labor signs: minor contractions

Belly button in or out: In but gradually coming out

What I miss: Energy, sleep and MY HIGH HEELS!

What I'm looking forward to: Paige finally arriving!

Milestones: I reached my due date

Bye bye due date..... :(

Welp it is December 1st. It has come and it is leaving and guess what? I'm still preggo! I dont know why I am so surprised......I'm scheduled to be induced Monday but I was holding out to the little glimmer of hope that Paige would come around and be born on her due date. Silly me! I started having contractions at 9 am and I could not have been happier. They stayed steady for six hours....six freaking hours! They came every 20 minutes and then nada. Boy words can not express just how disappointed I was. I tried to mask it.  To the outside world I looked like this

But on the inside I felt like this

I needed a hug in the biggest way but  was too upset to say so.  Instead I drowned my misery in a cheesy burger from TGIFridays and a gooey dessert.  Finally the contractions started back up about 3 hours later but they did nothing but piss me off.  Another glimmer of hope occurred when I went to the hospital at 11 pm. Once again the contractions were faithful...just not faithful enough for me to head to my delivery room. I was sent home. Such is life.  I know one thing...I cannot wait for this pregnancy to be over with!

My belly, my belly, my belly

Every day on BabyBump some woman posts a picture of her naked belly. Now I have faithfully taken belly shots WITH my clothes on to cherish the moments but I have been apprehensive about naked belly shots. This is only because my naked belly looks deformed in my opinion. It's not cute at all and it's shaped kind of funny. It kind of looks as if it contains a tumor instead of a baby and so I just did not want to take any pics. Well I wanted to but I didn't. Does that make sense?

So one day Paige is acting a fool and I whip out my camera to record her. Of course she stopped as soon as I started recording....she throws so much shade *sighs* but I figured hey my belly is out, my camera is out, let's take some pics.

I don't really think my bump is huge per se but after seeing the pics I may need new glasses. This thing looks gigantic. I look at the picture all of the time because within that huge bump sits my Paige-E-Poo...how awesome is that :). So world here is my naked bump. Don't laugh. I'm like Erykah Badu...I'm sensitive about my ish :)

30 weeks!!!

Finally reached 30 weeks. Lord knows I shed so many tears when the clock struck 12 and it became official. This has been an eventful pregnancy but I'm still trucking along. I don't think a week goes by that I don't have a nervous breakdown brought on by stressing about if everything is going to be set by the time Paige gets here, how things are going to change and the big one ... CAN I DO THIS?!?!?

I have 10 weeks left and despite alll of the tears and fears lol I can't wait to meet my little munchkin. I have a feeling she can't wait to meet me either. She is tired of my uterus lol

Progress:

How far along: 30 weeks


Total weight gain: 16 lbs


Size of the baby: Lettuce (18 inches 3.2 lbs)


Sex: Girl (Definitely!!!!)


Maternity clothes: Only jeans....still rocking my pre-maternity maxi dresses!


Sleep: It is getting better. I find myself propped on my back or *gasp* on my belly


Movement: YES!!! Lots of it.


Food cravings: Fruit especially apples, Mexican food and hot salty fries! Yum!


Food aversions: Milk


Morning sickness: all day every day. Wishing it will end soon! But Ginger Ale is helping.


Symptoms: tired, sick, swollen feet, backaches, jacked up nipples :/


Labor signs: Nope


Belly button in or out: In but gradually coming out


What I miss: Energy, sleep and MY HIGH HEELS!


What I'm looking forward to: Baby shower AND getting Paige's nursery furniture


Milestones: turned 30 weeks!!!

The 4D Ultrasound Experience

                        

At first I was a little apprehensive about getting a 4D ultrasound. The price along in some places had me shaking my head. But then I came across an ad for 4D Picture Perfect down in Fort Lauderdale and thought why not. I scheduled the appointment and anxiously awaited seeing my little princess. I wondered for weeks just who she would look like and finally Saturday arrived.

My dad, son, mother in law and I all journeyed down to Fort Lauderdale. The place was pretty easy to find...the directions were spot on. Once we entered I saw a handful of other pregnant women with the same look of anticipation on their face. After paperwork and payment I was called to the back and that is when the REAL fun began. As soon as the technician put the gel on my belly, I saw Paige and she had the hiccups. First of all, Paige is HUGE! Oh gosh! The little girl still has 11 more weeks to bake but she is looking as if she's ready to enter the world now. Her hiccups were so cute. She looked so real..... I mean I know she's real but I could actually see her going through her day to day movements so it felt realer (is that even a word?) to me. Anyhoo after the hiccups went away, she yawned and stretched (She was just waking up) and then came the mommy faces.

 I call them the mommy faces because I promise my little princess was making the SAME faces that I make. She scrunched up her face and nose as if she really did not want to participate. But Paige KNOWS her mom. She knows I dont play with a full deck at times so she obliged and sucked her fingers, opened her eyes, smiled, yawned....ya know...gave me my picture worthy moments before she went straight DIVA on me and said "I"M DONE!"

Yep once the diva came out I knew it was over and so did the technician. Paige put her feet on her head and refused to move them. All of the poking and shifting in the world would not and DID NOT change this little girl's mind. Those feet stay on her head and then her umbilical cord moved in front of her face and folks, it was a wrap!

What I learned from this experience is that Paige definitely has her mom's personality AND attiude...she has her dad's lips....she has BIG feet from her dad's side....she has peach fuzz hair....she sucks her thumb.....she crosses her hands as if she's praying already(the child already knows that she's going to need prayer...how smart is she lol) and when she does NOT want to be bothered, she does NOT want to be bothered.

Her dad's lips for sure!

Overall it was a good experience. Seeing her definitely made it more "real" for me. I now stare and stare at her pictures for hours at a time....I'm sure that 's not very good. I'm excited about meeting her.  11 more weeks and she will be here \o/

Sucking on her fingers

Sticking her tongue out

Opening her eyes!

29 weeks!

How far along: 29 weeks

Total weight gain: 13 lbs

Size of the baby: Butternut squahs (17 inches 3.1 lbs)

Sex: Girl (Definitely!!!!)

Maternity clothes: Only jeans....still rocking my pre-maternity maxi dresses!

Sleep: Having to switch sides a lot! Hips hurt during the night

Movement: YES!!! Lots of it.

Food cravings: Fruit especially apples, Mexican food and sweets

Food aversions: Milk

Morning sickness: all day every day. Wishing it will end soon! But Ginger Ale is helping.

Symptoms: tired, sick, swollen feet, backaches

Labor signs: Nope

Belly button in or out: In but gradually coming out

What I miss: Energy, sleep and MY HIGH HEELS!

What I'm looking forward to: Baby shower AND getting Paige's nursery furniture

Milestones: Had my 4D ultrasound!

28 weeks

How far along: 28 weeks

Total weight gain: 13 lbs

Size of the baby: Cabbage  17 inches 2.9 lbs

Sex: Girl

Maternity clothes: Only jeans....still rocking my pre-maternity maxi dresses!

Sleep: It's getting better!

Movement: YES!!! Lots of it.

Food cravings: Fruit especially apples

Food aversions: Chipotle

Morning sickness: all day every day. Wishing it will end soon! But Ginger Ale is helping.

Symptoms: tired, sick, swollen feet, backaches

Labor signs: Nope

Belly button in or out: In but gradually coming out

What I miss: Energy, sleep and MY HIGH HEELS!

What I'm looking forward to: hitting the 70's mark AND getting Paige's nursery furniture

Milestones: Passed my glucose test!

Progress Report

27 weeks!

I saw this on another baby blog and thought it was a neat idea!

How far along: 27 Weeks 2 Days

Total weight gain: 9 lbs

Size of the baby: Cauliflower  16 inches  2.5 lbs

Sex: Girl

Maternity clothes: Only jeans....still rocking my pre-maternity maxi dresses!

Sleep: ha! I toss and turn all night

Movement: YES!!! Lots of it.

Food cravings: Sweets

Food aversions: Chipotle

Morning sickness: all day every day. Wishing it will end soon! But Ginger Ale is helping.

Symptoms: tired, sick, swollen feet

Labor signs: Nope

Belly button in or out: In  but gradually coming out

What I miss: Energy, sleep and MY HIGH HEELS!

What I'm looking forward to: My baby shower on the 20th of October and Paige's arrival on the 1st of December

Milestones: Entering my third trimester :)

Godparents.....Check!

Choosing godparents for a child is such a tough job.  I really wanted Paige to have great godparents.  The problem with godparents is you dont usually know if they will be good or bad until you've given them the job.  So I thought long and hard about it. I thought about which qualities I would like for Paige's godparents to have and then I came up with a list.  Next was the hard part....actually asking.  I dont know why but I was so nervous about asking if they would be Paige's godparents.  I have known them for over 10 years and view them as family(one actually is family) so I dont understand where the fear came from.  Anyhoo I asked and all were honored to accept the responsibility and job as Paige's godparents.  So I can place a check by godparents.  We have them now. :) Paige has 3 lovely godmothers and 1 godfather.

Next task....

Hey 3rd trimester!!!!

So it's finally here! The moment that I have been waiting for. I officially entered my third trimester. *throws confetti* I look back on this pregnancy and I have come a long way. Now I'm down to two digits on my number count and am anxiously awaiting the arrival of Miss Paige! I enter this trimester nearly in tears. My feet are swollen and sleeping is now a task that I dread. I wake up feeling as if I've been in a major fight and I didnt win. Everything hurts....back, legs, hips. I wake up without any energy. I look forward to visiting my dad and stepmom so that I can actually sleep and be comfortable in their Lazy-E-Boy. I knew I should've invested in a recliner lol Anyhoo I have 3 months left and a lot of stuff to do to make sure that the everything is ready for my Paige. It's time to GRIND! ;)

The baby shower drama...

When October 20th gets here I will be the happiest person on the planet!!! I've had so much baby shower drama.  I had no idea such an event could be so stressful! I probably wouldnt be so stressed if I wasnt such a huge control freak lol I hate surprises so I literally have been involved in every aspect of my shower.......wanting everything MY WAY

The first issue was the date.  I dont know why I'm obsessed with October 20th but I am.  The coordinator wanted a date in November which I thought was just too far. On October 20th I will be 34 weeks which in itself is far along. Can you imagine November? Because I'm spoiled I got my way :)

The next issue was the location. We finally settled on the Wellington Community Center. However after meeting with the manager we were told that we could only have 50 people in the room. 50 people? 50 family and friends? So what am I suppose to tell my other family/friends...ummm

I was not happy about this but what could a sister do.....I had to cut the list down :/ So finally we get the list cut down and that brought out the next issue....THE THEME!

Several themes were thrown out from Queen of the Jungle to Princess.  I agreed to the princess theme because that's exactly what Paige is to me .... MY LITTLE PRINCESS *smile* However half way through planning the shower I changed my mind. Hey I'm a woman..sue me.  Paige's room has a princess theme and I just did not want princess princess princess shoved down my throat. So I changed the theme to "Sugar & Spice......and everything NICE" At first this confused the coordinator but after googling the theme she came along and loved the idea.  No more problems right?

WRONG! So as soon as I am preparing to drop off the payment to the Wellington Community Center I am hit with the news that the room is $750.

This was truly some fracker-nacker-BULL-crap! What we were originally quoted and what ended up being the final price were two verrrryyyy different prices.  750? Who do we look like to you? So that brought upon extra stress because now we have to find another location.  I found one but the coordinator

So finally I found a location.  I went to the location and spoke with the manager with an open mind and crossed fingers.  Everything seemed pretty good....pretty good room, pretty good location,  pretty good price. And most importantly me and the coordinator agreed! Yay! So now we are just waiting for the final approval. I cant wait. On October 20th I'm definitely going to kick my heels up and have a great time no matter what anyone thinks. I deserve it!

Paige's closet

Paige's closet is coming along.  Gerber had a nice 50% off sale so I ordered all of her layette(bodysuites, socks, mittens, hats, and pajamas) from them. Her package finally came in.

Next Paige received another package from a friend. Between all of the outfits that I have bought her and my friend's package, I think her closet is coming along nicely.

Morning sickness

Here I am in my second trimester peeking into my third and all I would like to know is

 

WHEN DOES THE MORNING SICKNESS END!!!!!

Like seriously. Everyone told me the second trimester would be heavenly. Well I'm still sick!!! I try not to drink the ginger ale because it is full of sugar but it seems to be the only thing that works. My mornings are the worst but the sickness can and WILL pop up at any time.  How much more of this do I have to take?

The hospital scare

Today has been a very scary day for me. First of all my son missed his bus. I worked about a good 20-30 minutes away from home and my son has to catch the bus. Well if he misses the bus I'm unable to leave my job...drive all the way home...take him to school....and return to work. So when he missed the bus today I was very nervous. Luckily my aunt was able to pick him up and take him.  I guess Paige did not want to be left out because then she scared me. All day long and not one piece of movement from her. The first thing that I did once I got off of work was to call my doctor. It was 4 o'clock. I explained that my child had not moved all day. I've read stories about babies dying within the womb so needless to say I was scared. As soon as I made the call, she moved. One little kick. My doctor immediately told me to go to the hospital. Now I was scared. Who was going to get my son? What was I going to do? What if I had to deliver? OMG! I was a nervous wreck and I started crying. Eventually I ended up not going to the hospital. Instead I went to the doctor's office and was monitored. Everything seemed fine with Miss Paige although she still was not moving. So after eating and drinking finally Paige started moving. I've never been so scared in my life. Ok hold up, I went into early labor with my son so Paige not moving is not the scariest but its pretty high on the list. Overall BOTH of my children are fine. I had a huge sigh of relief. They better not EVER scare me like that again.

Not the Sugar!!!!!

Black people have a habit of calling diabetes "The Sugar".  So imagine when earlier this week I received a phone call telling me that me and Paige had failed the first glucose test and would have to do the dreaded 3 hour glucose test. I nearly cried.....not me lawd, not the sugar!!!! Yes I know..

Anyhoo the first test was not that bad so I went into the second test only worried about the results...not the test itself.  BIG mistake! I took the drink down and gave blood. Simple right? Well I then had to wait for an entire hour before I could give blood again. The second time I gave blood my body decided to act a plum fool. My veins which are normally the best veins in the world decided that they were tired and did not want to give blood. After trying and trying finally the nurse said we're going to take it from your hands. No problem right? Child please! That ish HURT! I have no problems with giving blood. I'm normally a pro. But chillllddd this hurt and I was forced to bite my lip to keep from crying. I was trying to be a big girl though.  So I was sent back to the waiting room to wait yet another hour and during this time I tried so hard to stop the tears from falling. Finally after falling asleep,  I was called to the back. I pleaded with the nurse to find a vein in my arm but my veins had no sympathy for a sista....they would NOT work. So she was forced to go to the hand again. I didnt even try to hide it this time. I boo hoo'd. It hurt so bad!!!!!!! The poor nurse felt sorry for me but unfortunately she had to do her job. My hand was so sore when I left that place. And what made it so bad is that I had to leave there and go to work. I was not a happy camper! Oh well time to wait for these results.




Update:
I never heard from the doctor's office so it's pretty safe to assume that we passed the three hour test! \o/ Woo hoo!

24 weeks!

We're moving along! Yay!

The dreaded glucose test!

I dont remember much from my first pregnancy but I do remember the glucose test.  It sucked! It was a horrible experience.  I remember drinking something nasty and struggling to keep it down.  Just a flat out horrible experience.  So now its time for me to take my glucose test for Paige and of course I'm dreading it.

So the day finally comes. I wake up and go to the doctor's office and I'm given this drink. Hold up. What is this? This does not look like the gross drink I was forced to drink 11 years ago. This was fruit punch flavored and cold. I took it down without a second thought.  It tasted like Kool Aid.  The nurses were surprised with how fast I drunk it.  And then it was time to give blood. The appointment overall was easy.  My doctor was happy with my weight gain, I heard Paige's heartbeat and I was sent on my merry way. What more could a pregnant woman ask for? :)

Stuck in the middle

I thought I had my baby's name picked out. Paige McKenzee for a girl and Tristan Khalil for a boy. Remember? Easy right? Well every since I found out that I was having a girl I've been picking names out of a hat on a daily basis. Paige is pretty much set. I love the name and that is what I call her whenever we have our "mommy and me" time. Despite what other people haters think about the name, Paige is what it is going to be. However McKenzee is up for discussion. Lately I've been thinking about Gabrielle, Savannah, Haylee after my grandmother, Noelle, and Kensley. I've been up in the air.

Now my son has entered the mix. He desperately wants to name my daughter. He is finally coming around to being a big brother and I am excited about that. I have come to the conclusion that I want him involved since it will be the three of us chilling for the next 18 years. His name of choice is Katelyn. It's cute.....although I never considered it before.

So after thikning about it, I've decided that the baby's name as of now is Paige Katelyn. Paige consists of 5 letters. My son's name is Jalen and consists of 5 letters. Check! Katelyn begins with a K. My son's middle name begins with a K. My name begins with a K. My father's name begins with a K. Checks all around! I think we've settled on something that we can live with. Time to put the name hat away

The Michelle Obama look .... aka Paige's closet



Her Michelle Obama look :)


I was pretty adamant that I was not going to start shopping for this baby until August 1st. Dont ask me why that particular date stuck in my mind. I was trying to wait until I was further alone and until school started and simply picked the date. Anyhoo here I am chilling in Biloxi, Mississippi with my lovely family and what hits me? The urge to shop! Not the urge to shop for myself because that would be too much like right but the urge to shop for Paige. I tried to fight it as much as I possibly could but decided to go with the emotion and hang loose. So we piled into my father's car and drove to the outlet mall. I had no idea what temptation and pleasure awaited me lol. Seriously shopping for this baby was like a high...it was euphoric. Ok maybe I'm exaggerating a little but I did get a major rush.

Unlike registry shopping, clothes shopping has ALL of the cute items for little girls. A woman could easily go broke. Thank God my father raised me to be a sale-a-holic and I've become quite the coupon queen too. I started off at Baby Gap proceeded to The Children's Place(which had a deal so great that I need to find another one asap!) and ended my journey at Carters. Paige has jeans, dresses, and the cutests skirts. She can look like Beyonce one day and Michelle Obama the next. I love it! Of course I told myself that this was the ONLY shopping that I would do for her until August 1st.

Three days later I find myself entering a Walmart for cereal and exiting out with 15 personalized onesies for Paige. I just could not resist....they were so cute with their "My mom is cute and so am I" slogans! What was a woman to do? Because of all of this andddd moving, I have had to push Paige's shopping date back to October. At the rate that I was going I would be broke and homeless and Paige's closet would be ridiculously stocked. So I'm trying my best to keep my promise. This week is sale tax week. Lets see how long I last

             

21 weeks!!!!

I'm moving along quite nicely. I have been asked several times why I write this blog....why do I take so many pictures? Well the first answer is the easiest...BECAUSE I WANT TOO!  Naw seriously...I'm the one who is pregnant and I want to remember it. Do you know how many photographs I have of me being pregnant with my son? 2! Two lousy pictures! I cant go back and say ohhhh I remember that because I only have two photographs. I cant go back and read a post and laugh or cry about it because I never wrote down any memories. I never thought I'd be pregnant again and so even though Paige is kicking my butt...I want to remember this! So I'm now 21 weeks! Paige is so active it's not even funny but this little girl is going to be a mommy's girl! When I'm sleep, she's sleep! When I'm up...she's up! And she lets me know that she's up too whether its by kicking or punching! Whenever I sing to her she perks up and shows appreciation with a little jab! Whenever I talk to her she talks back with a little nudge. I love this little girl. 19 weeks left!