Well today has finally arrived....with God's will and a little help from the science world, I will finally be able to hold and meet my little "Deuce". I promise it feels as if I have been pregnant for years instead of being pregnant for a mere 40 weeks and 2 days. I woke up singing Hallelujhah and praising God for allowing me to see this day but as the hours have rolled by I find myself getting a little more excited, more anxious and just a tad bit sad. My pregnancy is coming to an end in a few hours. I've tried to rub my belly and talk to her just because tomorrow there will no longer be anyone IN my belly. For all of the agony that she has caused.....the backaches, the pelvis aches, the food adversions, the constant peeing, the inability to walk at times, the weight gain...yeah this list could go on and on and on lol but for all of the agony that she has caused a piece of me is sad because this is my last pregnancy and it is coming to an end.
Its funny because I never thought that I would feel this way....not last month, not last week, not even yesterday. Hell not even a few hours ago. I have been the one shouting and jumping for joy that I was so glad that my pregnancy was ending so it kind of shocks me that I am feeling this way. I find myself just staring at my little---ok BIG--bump. Never in a million years would I have ever thought that I'd be in this predicament and yet here I am. I have tried to cherish every moment. I think I'll need a few moments alone.
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