I weigh what?!?!?

I'm obsessed with my weight. It seems crazy because I'm pregnant and well I'm expected to gain weight! That's not how I feel. When I got pregnant with my son I was 130 lbs. I gained 41 lbs(yes I was huge) while pregnant and quite frankly I could afford to gain it. With Deuce things are different. I was 185 when I conceived Deuce and at my first prenatal appointment I was 192. I have studied that number. I've obsessed about it. In my mind I'm walking around here looking like Precious and that's a no go. It's not all vanity. I've read enough pregnancy books and articles to know that preeclamsia(spelling) and gestational diabetes are real out here in these streets. I am worried about my health and Deuce's safety and that leads me to being flat out obsessed with the number. At my second doctor's appointment I found myself at 192 again! I breathed a sigh of relief! NO weight gain! Whoop Whoop! But then something funny happened. I took a few shots of my belly and found that my belly is now HUGE! Same weight .... different belly!

This is me on March 17th. Believe it or not I'm pregnant with Deuce!

And this is me a mere two months later. I'm 12 weeks pregnant with Deuce. What a change!

They say you're bigger with your second child. When I was 12 weeks with Jalen, my belly was still flat. It didn't pop out until I was 16 weeks! One thing for sure, Deuce is making her presence known NOW!